I stand at your gates and look up to the sky;
It’s dark where I stand, and I’m not sure why.
My head is spinning, because I want to scream
At the way you hide away, lost in your dreams.
I’m on my knees, ready to plead,
But you don’t know what I need.
You keep yourself hidden, you’re locked
In your mind, a headache forming, I knocked.
Please forgive me, I need to know:
The way you say hello
Is quite magical, dear,
And its realness is my only fear.
Sometimes I have a dream
That you look into my soul
And see nothing but a hole;
Desperately I want to scream.
You look at me, lacking control
Because your baby disappeared;
It was the one thing I feared:
Realization of what they stole.
The black hole in me leered,
A gaping chasm in my heart;
Spreading, it’s poison from a dart
That cannot be revered.
Oh, dear, what a look on your face;
A shattered soul met without grace.
In this grey cold,
A lonely heart bleats.
What rush retreats;
Frozen air has cajoled
and plunged heart beats.
An endeavor of old;
Winter’s mistake repeats.
Love shaded pale gold
Like a ghost, faded.
Skip the blasted grey; hold
to the blue-tinged streets.