I stand at your gates and look up to the sky;
It’s dark where I stand, and I’m not sure why.
My head is spinning, because I want to scream
At the way you hide away, lost in your dreams.
I’m on my knees, ready to plead,
But you don’t know what I need.
You keep yourself hidden, you’re locked
In your mind, a headache forming, I knocked.
Please forgive me, I need to know:
The way you say hello
Is quite magical, dear,
And its realness is my only fear.
A heart that is broken still beats.
A heart cannot break of sadness
My heart didn’t stutter when
My lungs cracked apart
And showed me how unforgiving
Your ice really is.
My heart was far from my mind
As my stomach twisted until
I could barely swallow.
Or eat. Or think.
My mind buried you and
Laid beside the grave,
Rubbing its fingers over
Your engraved name.
My heart slowed down and
Sped up when I pondered you
And showed me steadiness
As I faced grief.